Lyrics

A shock to my system
The signs were there I just missed them
I didn't know you had such little time to go
I said I forgive you
There was more to say but I chose to
Keep it to myself and now you'll never know

But now I'm left with these raw feelings
that I spent my life concealing
If you were here you might just say to me

Put the pen to paper
The pain will begin to taper
Put the pen to paper and say it to me
Put the pen to paper
Do it now not later
Put the pen to paper and say it to me

Whenever I saw you
You kept hoping for a breakthrough
I could always tell but that yearnful look in your eye
But I kept it hidden
Internalized and forbidden
And it stayed inside me until the day you died

There was so much I should have told you
But I felt so guilty to scold you
If you were here you might just say to me

Put the pen to paper
The pain will begin to taper
Put the pen to paper and say it to me
Put the pen to paper
Do it now not later
Put the pen to paper and say it to me

You were not really there for me
Not as much as you cared to me
I just wanted the best Dad you'd dare to be
And I should not have been so hard on you
But the disappointment filled my head
So I hid my love to you instead

Now I'll write the things I should've shared
Write them down, feelings bared
And I'll think of you as if you were there
And you said...

Put the pen to paper
The pain will begin to taper
Put the pen to paper and say it to me
And say it to me
And say it to me
And say it to me